Anticipating some alone time

It has been approximately fourteen months since I've been alone.

Well, not exactly. There have been date nights, naptimes, girls nights out, and the occassional mani/pedi. But fourteen months ago Baby T was born, and because I breastfed him for a year let's face it, I've had no more than about 6 or so hours alone since then. Now he is successfully weaned and the list of "things I've been wanting to do" has begun. So what have I chosen to do first? This week I'm going to New York City BY MYSELF. Yep... no husband or child. DH is playing Mr. Mom for a week of daddy/son bonding and I will be off to stay in Astoria for a few days, go into Manhattan everyday, play with friends, and see a Broadway show (or two). I will be alone.

My friends in New York keep apologizing that they might have to work one of the afternoons I'm there, or have an audition to go to, but they don't realize how long it has been since I've been alone. I don't care if all I do is walk up & down 5th Avenue all day long, I will be doing it by myself, on my time, without a diaper bag in tow. No naptimes to schedule around or snacks to pack. I'm even excited to get on an airplane alone (especially after last week's flight across country with my fourteen-month old - YIKES!) I can read a magazine or SLEEP! I'm gonna miss T like crazy (and DH of course), but I'm anticipating some time to get back to myself... rejuvenate and re-energize so that I will come back an enthusiastic mommy.

I'm a little nervous, and a little surprised that I feel a bit insecure being alone after a year of always having a buddy in tow. But I'm also ready to enjoy a week of ME time, and grateful to a DH who can give me a little of that. So NYC, here I come.... maybe I'll have a new tribute to write once I return.